Vacation Throwback: Summer of ’18 in CA

*Cue Roaring 20’s and Old Fashioned by Panic! at the Disco in the background, on repeat* (meaning at least listen to the songs once, PLZ, then just listen to the rest of the album…yes I may be too much of a fan)

DISCLAIMER: All photos are mine, even the header.

This was the vacation I needed, and in the same note of I wanted it, I didn’t know I NEEDED so badly. I truly grew so much, learned so much, and explored so much, I can only hope to get some of it across through some of my social media posts, my pictures, and through posts like this.

I had 2 weeks, with flights, that was fairly busy, out in CA. I shared right before, my planning of it, go check it out! This is my aftermath vomit post. Yes, it took too long, sorry guys. Mind my last post on some reasoning (I know, no excuses! I hate it…I just was still recovering and couldn’t deal for some reason(s)…but here I am, getting back on the vibe).

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The first major thing I got to do, which was the reasoning for the whole vacation out to California anyway, was Yosemite. I enjoyed the time up, with, and back down, with my mom and her parents. It was 4 total days, 2 full days in the park, the last day in the middle of the park, and down the Sierra Nevada mountains.

The travel through the park, and down the Sierra Nevada’s, I’m so grateful I had the intuition and confidence to say what I would think would create some great memories and photography shots, to my grandpa (who asked me personally about how we should make our way back down to where they live).

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Yosemite couldn’t have been any more enjoyable on my end, especially as a first time visitor, with experienced visitors. When my grandma told me that my grandpa fell in love with waterfalls from their first visit at Yosemite, I can truly see why. Seeing it for myself, and seeing my grandpa, in his mid 80’s be in his element, I see it.

For some backstory: my grandpa and my dad are both photography nerds. Keep in mind, it’s my mom’s dad here, so it’s not a dad and son thing here. My late grandfather is very an “in the moment” guy, and I’ve appreciated that the more I’ve aged (which took a toll on me during this trip…the “in the moment” that Ekhart Tolle shares, especially in his book of “The Power of Now”, which has shaped me more than anything, since I read it).

I can see myself in all of them, and most so I felt that during this trip. This was my first “fun” trip since before my late grandfather passed. I had a memorable time when visiting him prior to his passing, but knowing that he was going to die is a different trip. If you’ve lost someone close, and had a weekend even with them, prior to their passing, I’m sure you know the similar feeling of what I experienced.

Since my grandfather’s passing, I’ve grown so much as a person, and even more so in the last 2 years, because I know that’s what he’d want (outside of getting over his passing). Going to Yosemite refreshed my love of nature, especially around water (lakes, waterfalls, rivers, storms), as well as photography, and being in the moment.

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Pretty much three weeks later, I’m still in shock of what I saw, and the fact that it’s now behind me. Let alone the fact that I still get mesmerized by my raw pictures that I got. I hated nearly all the pictures I was in, but the pictures I got were beyond anything.

They truly didn’t need editing. I went through about 400 pictures, and I didn’t want to edit the ones I kept. It took me forever to just “man up” and realize that I knew I didn’t have to (and didn’t want to) edit my pictures from Yosemite.

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Past Yosemite, it was some down time, a lunch with my mom, a family dinner, then to VidCon and Disneyland on my last day. This is where I grew the most. I noticed how far I had come at that point, as a person, as well as an adult. A lot can happen from 18 to 23.

Some unfortunate things happened on some plans for VidCon, and it turned into a long solo weekend. The universe knew better than I did. I broke down one night even, but I needed to experience a breakdown totally alone to become stronger.

I knew that even during the breakdown. I’m a better person from that, and because of the whole experience of the solo “weekend” if you want to call it that.

I was reminded of my strength as a person, of the fact that I’m capable of doing things on my own, and that nothing is ever as bad as what your mind tells you it is (via whatever chemical imbalances you may have, whether too much or too little of something). Something I was taught in mentor/leadership camp, I was reminded of recently: You and your body can endure so much more than you think. It’s convincing your mind of it that’s the issue.

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Vidcon was nice but isn’t worth the hype. I can’t speak for what it was (this was the first year under a new company), and although it was super interesting and neat to attend, the hype isn’t there. Which to me, makes sense. Social media and people in general hype things up so much it’s not even funny.

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VidCon made the *big* channels I tune into more personified, which is what I think is the original point of why VidCon was created. It’s sad that we need a conference to personify people that talk into a camera. But in the same way, YouTube creators are doing something the mainstream actors and news anchors aren’t: truly interacting with those who have made them who they are.

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My last big thing on this vacation was Disneyland. This was originally my only solo thing during this trip. The day there was what I needed to spark the kid in me again. I indulged in the fast pass system, and since I went alone, I only had to worry about what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it, and it was a great experience doing something like that alone. I talked with some pretty cool people while in the ride lines, and had a blast.

I went on about 12-15 rides, ate some dole whip to cool down, and even went up and down the Tarzan tree house, for nostalgic reasons. I had a perfect day there, and even got my first set of ears! I have them hanging on my wall now.

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This trip reminded me of who I am, and how strong I’ve become in myself, especially over the last handful of years. I am so grateful for this experience, and am so glad of the memories.

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Plan With Me: 2 Week Trip to CA

So later today, I’m starting a 2 week trip to California. And it’s going to be a busy one at that as well! I know a lot of people can’t just take a 2 week trip, and until the last few years, I was in that same boat.

This trip started last fall, and I want to share how I planned this, and share how busy I’ll be! This 2 week trip will bring so much inspiration and content. It will also give me a break from the mundane life that I’ve been living the last 5 years since I’ve started working for the company that I do.

Audio Book Review: Wisdom of Sundays

I’ve never really gotten into Oprah, but I know she’s so influential, and love her vibe, for what I’ve listened, heard, and saw of her. Awhile back, Aileen from Lavendaire said that she had listened to the audio book of Oprah’s Wisdom of Sundays, taken from her series on her network.

I chose my first of two audiable credits I had, to listen to Wisdom of Sundays as well. It was no better time to listen to this, right before my trip to California. I’ll be sharing more on how I planned that on Monday! Anyway, I truly suggest, as a fan or not so much fan, to go listen to these conversations she shares in this audio book.

Truly, this book is something that was perfectly placed into my life, and made it’s way into my life, at no better of a time.

Oprah’s best life style shines through this whole book, which really isn’t a book, but filled with best life tips, tricks, and “Ah-ha!” moments we should all experience. I would love to get into watching or listening to more of the Super Soul Sunday conversations because of this book.

Oprah shares her conversations with people like Gary Zukav, my next re-read author (which I next to never re-read) Ekhart Tolle, and one of the last ones on her list, Daniel Pink. I love the idea that that conversation brought: every great person/influencer has a sentence or catch that we remember them for.

Throughout this book, every time that Oprah talks about gratitude and her gratitude journal, I keep telling myself that I need to get back into doing my daily gratitude. I was doing so well, doing 5 a day, and kind of lost track of it. This is a habit that I wanted to cultivate this year, and I’m not doing it as much as I should.

Also, while listening to this whole book, over the course of many days, I am brought back to mindfulness and self awareness. When I say I needed this book, at this exact point in my life, I mean it. The mindfulness brought to light in the conversation of John Kabat-Zin was the start of everything I needed in this book. When he says “When you’re making pasta, and stirring the sauce, JUST STIR THE SAUCE”

The next conversation that hit me was the one with Reverand Bacon (I think that’s his name…chapter 4 of the audio book…listed as chapter 5 because of the intro being a “chapter”, for reference).

Their take on vibrations, and how what you do, say, and surround yourself with, creates your vibration and energy. When you tweak or mess with one (or when one messes with you), the others are affected. It makes sense on why I have a lot of the desires that I do, wanting to branch out and move on, in terms of my work, let alone who I want to keep around me.

I’ve been on the journey of filtering out or limiting the energies that don’t vibe with mine, either as they come, or the ones that have been around too long and need to go. Frankly, most of that has been dealt with, so it’s just a “deal with it as it arises” sort of thing.

My next “Ah-ha” moment came just a little over a chapter later in the listen. Commentary on the idea of “the opposite of poverty isn’t wealth, but justice”. What justice are you doing for yourself? With that

As I listened to Oprah’s conversation with Elie Wisel at the end of her book, the first minute broke my heart. Any survivor of that type of horror brings my feels out, and knowing that his heartbreak of his sister dying during the Nazi reign makes me feel the sad feels. Anything like that, sad feels doesn’t even cut it for my pain, and I didn’t even loose someone from those wars.

Wiesel had written about 50 books, and he is best noted for saying “The opposite of love is not hate, but indifference”, which is remarkable. Looking through his list of books is what I HAVE to do over the next while, and add to my ever-growing list of books to read.

He passed away just under 2 years ago, and may his soul truly rest easy.

This audio book is a MUST READ/LISTEN. I grasp why those who recommend it, recommend it. When you need hope, when you need inspiration, when you need ideas, when you are in need of “Ah-Ha” moments, get this audio book. Listen to this when you are short on yourself, when you need something to pull you out of yourself, out of your mind.

This will be a listen frequently. This will be at least an annual listen, like what I’m making the Power of Now from Tolle, and Tuesdays with MorrieTuesdays with Morrie by Albom.

I’ve never been the type to re-read books. But as of late (the last 2 years really), I’ve turned into one of those. My first re-read was Tuesdays with Morrie, hence my desire of talking with “older” people, and wanting to turn it into a podcast.

The Power of Now hit me so hard last year that I couldn’t help but want and near NEED to put it on a re-read list. Listening to Wisdom of Sundays has done the same thing. 12 Rules for Life is on my re-read list as well.

 

Last Imaginary Life: An Interior/House Designer

So for the last 10 weeks, over every other Sunday, I’ve been sharing 5 imaginary or fantasy lives, from one of Aileen Xu’s videos/Artist of Life suggested journaling prompts.

This is my last one of this series. So if you haven’t checked out the other 4, go do so!

I’ve always loved decorating. I love moving things around. Ask anyone who has lived with me longer than 6 months. I’m always wanting to add things, move things, and anything in between.

Most of it, I believe stems from moving so much, growing up. Really, moving in general pretty frequently, as I’m not even 24 yet and I’ve moved 9 times! That’s on average about every 2-3 years!

No, I’m not a military brat either. I just have divorced parents.

I haven’t actually moved in 4 years now, and if all goes well, I’ll be making one big move with babe in the next 5-7 years, and I want it to be my last. Yes, I’m kind of tired of moving. Traveling? Nope. Moving? Yep.

But I do love decorating and re-styling a room. This is where I have this last imaginary life: being a home decorator.

I even have a cute little game on my phone that’s designing rooms for different houses, in different areas and imaginary peoples’ wants.

It’s very simple, and quite girly, but I’d love it! If there were actual money in it, I’d go after it. Maybe I should look more into it, like I am about some other things, including some of my other imaginary lives!

If you’ve been following along, what are 5 of your dream lives? How can you possibly implement them into reality during this life? Do you think (or even see) you could even do one as a full time life?

Controversial Books: May 2018 Book Review

This month, I read “Dangerous” by Milo Yiannopoulos. Yes, I had to Google his name to spell it…you would’ve too. This is my actual read, and not an audiobook read. I’ve turned to audiobooks as of late, and I’m no longer ashamed.

I do get rather sidetracked, looking stuff up when I’m busy, versus actually reading up on things. I also love the convenience of audiobooks when I’m doing mundane tasks, because it makes it all the less boring. One day I’ll be making enough money, where I’m not working where I am now. In the mean time, I have to make do with that time I have.

Anyway, instead of making this a sob story/pity party, let’s get into this book review! Dangerous has been out since Independence Day 2017, after LOADS of issues and controversy. What event of Milo’s doesn’t include such a thing though?

Yes, this is written by that Milo. That flaming gay conservative who married a black guy?!?! YES THAT MILO. He’s gay, and he’s every bit of that gay stereotype, with no guilt whatsoever of it. Kudos to him. Especially since he’s conservative, and pissing off the left, since he’s every ounce of that flaming 80’s homosexual:

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That’s all the background you need of him…really. And if need more, read the book haha!

So, let’s get into the book review, shall we?

Milo goes into the reasons why certain groups hate him. Not only that, he goes into why they don’t like him-he picks apart their more popular arguments/stances, and why they don’t stick, if you actually give it some sunlight. Half of it is sarcastic remarks or jokes, and the rest is points, in a mostly light manner.

There’s 9 chapters/groups that hate him, that he goes into, in the fashion above. The notable list is: the progressive left, the alt right (both poles of the horseshoe), Twitter, Feminists (more so the new wave), BLM, the Media, establishment Gays and Republicans (not the same chapter though), and Muslims.

Then there’s a chapter about why one group DOESN’T hate him: gamers.

The last chapter is about how awesome his college tour speeches are.

Personally, I enjoyed his commentary on how awful some of his “haters'” points are. Even his commentary on why modern feminists (see these books: Female Spectacle  Feminism) don’t like him, and his take on abortion. Yes even his take on abortion. 

Half of the commentary in the BLM chapter is also amusing as well. The same reason we laugh at the small amount of people who blame Jews for what’s going wrong in America, and what’s going on, is what’s happening when blacks blame the whites in America for the same things.

Yes, sure, there’s issues still, but how you handle the issues dealt to you, is up to you, and that includes you trying to blame someone else for your misfortune, sadly. The reason why whites land up better, and Jews better yet, is because of how they keep at things, and look at their issues and shortcomings.

If I gave you any more glimpse into Milo’s book, I’d fear that I’d have a plagiarism and copyright lawsuit on my hands!

The way Milo’s book reads, is nothing less than the troll-f*ckery that you’d expect out of him. Even though Milo and Ben Shapiro don’t get along, I’ll turn around next month and read one of Shapiro’s many books. “Which one?” you ask… Well that’s for next month for me to tell!

 

Plan With Me: June 2018

Disclaimer: I don’t have or use Happy Planner products (well yet…2019 will be that year.). My sister though…check her out on insta. If her cute spreads can’t win you over into even just planning and using planners/schedules, you might want to go get checked out by a professional (haha…but really, who are you?)

Over the last couple years, I’ve been finding my taste. It started in the middle of 2016 really. I had gotten a large calendar, but hadn’t used it. For whatever reason, I started using it as a food planning calendar. I did the same thing for 2017 and 2018. Now I do a spreadsheet first of the month, because it was going tacky, fast.

2017 started my Artist of Life Journey, and I also started tracking when bills were due in a desk calendar. 2018 for the most part has been the same,  but I’ve also added in making sure that I put in family and friends’ birthdays, so I could mail out cards, as well as making sure there was at least a holiday card as well, for everyone.

I also have a whiteboard calendar for my goals, and as of late, writing down when I want to bulk start my posts, as well as adding in when my posts are going live.

YES, I’m turning into one of those. Already? YES ALREADY! Next year I want to do even better. I want to go more all out, while still saving and managing things, so that babe and I can do what we want as well.

I’m highly considering changing up how I do things, when 2019 comes around. But that’s a half a year away, plus I still need to figure out how I want to do it differently, and gathering all of the supplies for it.

All of this is why planning is so important! I know it’s only June but think of next year. Even a card can make someone’s day, for their birthday, their religious holidays, and even just a “thinking of you” when they might be dealing with something, or just as a reminder that you still care.

At the end of last year, I made sure to get some spare holiday cards, as I’m personally not Christian, but know that Christmas is important for a lot of my loved ones. I also made sure that I counted all those I needed birthday cards for, and ordered a box of various birthday cards, for this year.

This is an easy way of planning, and to start writing a cute note inside each card, at least putting your address and a stamp on it, then when it’s about a week out from their birthday, making sure you have the correct mailing address, and all you have to do is mail it out, is so easy, and is a rather simple way of putting a smile on someone’s face.

Anyway, you probably wanted to see how I’m planning one of my busiest months of the year, didn’t you?

For my blog posts, I started this method last month, and have liked it so far. Especially since I’m traveling this month for 2 full weeks, this method is going to work out great, since I only need 3 days of being “online” on my laptop.

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What I did, was sketch out what days I wanted to post, which also meant planning out what I actually was posting. Usually I know what I’m posting on each day, but there’s 2 days that could be a conflict, since I am traveling, and am unsure of plans, let alone if I’ll have internet access to upload the review on the day I am planning. Hence what you see on the picture, is what it is.

I’ll be able to write things as they come along, then when I’m online on those three days, I just need to upload the posts, for scheduling.

My other big task is planning out meals, and budgeting. Both are so closely tied, that I’m just saying it at the same time. Now I’m not sharing my actual budget, as that’s just a tad too much.

If you know of a great budgeting planner/notebook let me know! I’ve just been using spreadsheets for each pay (I get paid every other week, right now), and as easy as it’s been, I’d love to try new ways to manage my budget!

Half of the month, for food planning is really sideways for me for June, as I have to plan for babe’s food while I’m gone, as well as my own, for the most part, plus the half of the month where we’re together.

I’m not inserting babe’s food on the calendar, as he can pick and choose what he wants each day, but I have a running list of what needs picked up before I leave, for him.

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Past that, it’s a very much “look at the planner”, as during my 2 week vacation, I have a 3 night stay in Yosemite with family, as well as a 4 night stay in Anaheim, and the rest is with my mom.

I won’t share those plans, as you’ll see my posts throughout the month on here, plus on my social medias (insta, FB, Twitter).

So what are some of your plans for June?

Tarot Tuesday: My Journey into Tarot

I’ll be honest (like I strive to be, always), I’m a baby when it comes to tarot. I only started it last year (2017), but I’ve enjoyed it like many others have.

Like I’ve shared, I just recently got my second deck, and I kind of went half backwards. I don’t know if you can go half backwards, but from anything I’ve learned over the last couple of years, is that when your gut says something, go with it and find out why later.

When I started looking into my first deck, early last year, I somehow became drawn to “non-traditional” decks, if that’s what they’re called. This year, I got myself a traditional style deck, and she is so pretty! She really does shine.

I like using both, and they both give me different insights, simply because (I believe anyway) they have different styles of deck, so they naturally highlight different things. Another part, is my journey and my intentions with each deck, due to how each read to me.

I’ve gotten questions and concerns about how I use them, and why. So if you’re too shy to ask, here’s my answer: I use tarot readings for internal reflections. I don’t use it to forecast anything that I don’t already know, or need to know, when I use them.

I use them when I have a mental block on something like suggesting a service to ya’ll (if my gut is in line with my head, if my head is making things up, etc). I use them when I feel torn between multiple things, or what I should consider on something.

If I’ve been occurring a similar dream pattern, or having too much deja vu, I’ll seek out what I’m ignoring, since whatever it is, is right in front of me screaming.

Like some girls say that they do their make-up for themselves, I do tarot readings for myself, and it’s helped me (and some of my anxiety), while trying to sort out this brain of mine. Grant it, I do other things like meditate, yoga, and read/research.