So I unintentionally took a month hiatus/vacation from posting. Not from writing though, let me tell you! I told you guys about my 2 week California trip in so many posts, and I meant to do various posts from it. But here we are, and I suck as a human being.
Since I’ve been back, I just haven’t been able to GYST (getting your sh*t together) back into things either. I flew back on a Monday, and Mondays are my GYST days. I did NOT GYST, even though I had so much down time on the flights. I just watched a half of a season of Game of Thrones and then slept and indulged myself in the presence of the LOML (love of my life) and an old friend.
I then had to somehow get back into reality of having to work, and it’s even harder being a night worker, since I got so used to sleeping at night. Grant it, it was a broken 6-7 hours at most, but trust me, when you’re not used to night sleep, you don’t need much.
Getting back into the work life, I would come home and literally somehow make food, and eat it, and legit pass out. My boyfriend would literally look over and see me in the oddest of positions, passed out. Two weeks later, I’m still fatigued, but I can make it longer before passing out. So I’d say I’m doing better haha.
None of this is me trying to make excuses. I’m just aware of my weaknesses, and wanted to share some backstory of my hiatus. I now know my limits, and will learn from this experience. I’m older, and working a light labor job, and I did a lot during my vacation to keep myself busy and active. I hardly had any “go to bed early and sleep in” nights during my vacation. Since I’ve been back, I’ve been sleeping a lot more because of that.
I wouldn’t have done it any other way though, if you’re wondering. I gained so much, and not just memories and time with my family from this. I became more in tune with myself, and learned a lot about myself, especially while in Anaheim (alone, mind you).
I found more things that I want to implement into my life during this vacation I had. I also learned my limits, like I said earlier. I learned how connected my best friend and I are, and how strong I am, and the power of no. I was reminded of how stress free my home is, and the fact that I’m in such a great place, and those that matter see it, and are so grateful and happy for me.
Now more than ever, even over the last few years, do I feel more aligned with where I’m going. I still feel the tug of needing to improve myself, and there’s so much I need to work on, but I’m right where I need to be.
There’s a point where you yourself may feel the weight of your shadow self and being in your conscious self, that you feel like you’re on the verge of a breakthrough, but it’s taking forever. Engulf yourself in it. That’s exactly where I’m at. I’m 23 almost 24. It may come sooner or later for you, but lean into it. Its hard, I know, I’m there. This is half a pep talk for me right now too.
On a better note, I have my first “actual” cookbook. Those recipes you’ve been seeing? Pinterest or from learning on my own (family recipes, family in general). Within the next couple months, I’ll start sharing some foodie days from there, and when I tweak the recipe, I’ll be sure to let you know. I’m looking forward to that.
Thursday, I’ll do a recap on my vacation, as a throwback post, so be ready!